Posting most visual stuff (that’s not of me, obv) on pinterest right now.
Fuck everything forever why do I even try. Get misgendered even when doing best to look completely my gender. Why do I even. *hopeless*
So there I am
I’ve been having the verge-of-suicidal utterly hopeless kind of lower dysphoria recently
(and talked about it where this person can read)
and I’m tweeting about how terrified I am re my gender expression stuff meaning ppl won’t see me as male/that back-of-the-brain semi-rational fear that fabulous shoes = being kidnapped and forcibly detransitioned
and this cis person says
(this is not meant as an offense at all) Maybe you are just TOO fabulous for just one gender?
Thank fuck for sedatives.
I don’t have enough strength or enough courage for this.
Ugh ~feels~ D: